She Had Managed To Close My Eyes

Extremely educated, motivated, mature, mentally/physically strong, a woman, defensive, adorable. We lasted 87 days. Although it seemed as if time didn't matter. A revolutionary in her own mind. She was a yellow bird. A genuine fish. She was my favorite moment. My July 4th.

I felt as if I had no options. Like my options didn't matter whether I had one or not. She had begun to avoid me. I wrote her explaining how I felt only to recieve her goodbye. There was nothing I could do because she suddenly didn't seem to care. Towards the end I had lost my sense of independence. I had never felt so needy! I felt weak, dependent, and mentally pathetic. I'm surprised I hadn't thrown up. I was being ignored while I practically searched for the reason why she began to disregard me from her life. She turned completely rebellious to the point of isolation from someone who cared. Not good for your health at all. I wish she wouldn't have left without giving me reasoning. I was left with puzzling assumptions that were never attempted to correct. She lacked dignity by telling me she was too 'busy'. The only thing I could do was begin to forget the past and disappear. That's one thing I've always done with ease. I cared, I cared alot. But when your the only one caring with no one beside you, then there is no point. You will always be you and everyone has their own preferences which must be respected.

So I eventually gained back my independence after several weeks. You evidently learn something out of every relationship that you naturally implement into the next.

"When i said 'I can see me in your eyes',
you said 'I can see you in my bed',
that's not just friendship, that's romance too,
you like music we can dance to."