Current Issue

I've been changing the past couple of weeks. I've come from organically being this thoughtful, caring, courageous person whom everyone could grow to like, to slowly somewhat bitterly converting into this very arrogant, selfish, and senselessly blind rebellion who's started making these worthless decisions when I'm aware that I can't afford mistakes along with their consequences. I'm a strong believer in equality, but this arrogance has turned my thinking and actions the other way around. People look at me differently now. They converse with me as if I'm going to hurt them. I never smile or laugh like i use to. At least I know I don't mean them. Every expression my face makes now is phony. It's a foreign feeling in my heart that isn't suppose to be there. It's hate for myself and my being dissatisfied with myself. Maybe plenty of frustration. I've never felt like this before. If you truly know me, then you can confidently state that I'm one of the MOST considerate, loving, and humorous people that you have ever met. I don't know what a solution to this dilemma could be. I hope it's just a phase because it seems to be psychologically serious in a way.I'm not completely helpless because I'm sure I can get through anything without anyones help. And if the world is against me, then bring it!