New Ambition

I just realized this. It hit me pretty hard. I want to be an actor and be in movies! And i'm gonna try my best as soon as i can. Need a job!!! I'm gonna take job hunting up a couple notches!

Time Is Flying, But I Am Not

Time is flying, but I am not. I don't know what I'm doing wrong!! I just want the opportunity to work in order to begin achieving my goals. I may not exactly know what these goals are, but I know that I want to succeed and be an influential person to my sister and friends. I'd like to make my mother proud of her son. I realized that you need money to make money a long time ago. I'm tired of being so dismantled. And whining and complaining isn't helping! So I must keep it to a minimum. My girlfriend Ashley helps me stay sane. I can't get enough of this woman! I'm so fortunate that she is being this patient with me and my lack of occupation and money. I really hope we last forever, because I have honestly never liked a girl this much. It was great finally getting to hang out with her after such a long time of curiousity. I want us to grow alot closer to each other to the point where I really find out what love is. I'm sure that will take time, but I'm a patient person. She's my love bug for now. I love every single detail about her! Ashley, if you read this..."You are pretty inside and out :)". In other news, I've gained thirty pounds. I now weigh two-hundred...for the second time. Haven't paid for my gym membership in ages, so I've reserved to jogging laps around the neighborhood and swimming laps in the pool. I try to push it as I did before, but it is definitely alot more difficult after the habit of heavily drinking and smoking last summer, winter, and spring. It's gonna get really hot now that summer is here and I will once again become a black man. My skin is way too sensitive for this darn heat! I'm considering going to church again. I haven't had a chat with God in a min. I'm sure he will bless me with a job. Well that's what's been going through my head the past couple weeks. I should really stop ranting about my problems. Hope I didn't bore ya!