I'm An Owl

I'm an owl; An Observer. I'm at my prime at night, and one day I'll begin a journey to see the world and its many faces. My independence is a critical moral. Association with those who lack respect are quickly disregarded, and anyone who can reserve their harsh judgments are carefully considered. Strength from the heart is admired. Constantly trying to sense what people are thinking and feeling. Dare yourself to imagine, dare yourself to dance, dare yourself to feel alive. Express yourself and live freely because life is shorter than you're aware of and there's no time for hiding.

DEFINITION OF THE DAY

banana republic

any of the small countries in the tropics, esp. in the Western Hemisphere, whose economies are largely dependent on fruit exports, tourism, and foreign investors.

n.   A small country that is economically dependent on a single export commodity, such as bananas, and is typically governed by a dictator or the armed forces. 

a small country (especially in Central America) that is politically unstable and whose economy is dominated by foreign companies and depends on one export (such as bananas)

Origin: 
1930–35

To Do List 2009

I'm going to take photos again.
I'm going to go back to the gym.
I'm going to train Muay Thai fighting.
I'm going to read more often.
I'm going to go to school full-time.
I'm going to eat healthier.
I'm going to stop smoking cigarettes.
I'm going to constantly learn new things.
I'm going to travel and experience the world.
I'm going to express how I feel to everyone.
I'm going to be modestly successful.
I'm going to be confident.
I'm going to save my money.
I'm going to attend at least one Coldplay concert.
I'm going to feel the breeze and enjoy it.
I'm going to paint my bike.
I'm going to pray more often.
I'm going to be fearless.
I'm going to fall asleep early.
I'm going to start drinking wine.
I'm going to associate myself with the right people.
I'm going to be more independent.
I'm going to be more positive minded.
I'm going to take care of my mother.
I'm going to advise my younger sister.
I'm going to prove myself to those who doubt me.
I'm going to have another car, and maintain it.
I'm going to avoid my previous mistake of driving drunk.
I'm going to advance my social skills.
I'm going to dress presentable.
I'm going to pay attention.
I'm going to respect those who respect me.
I'm going to be extremely busy.
I'm going to be ready for anything.
I'm going to visit family in Mexico.
I'm going to give, to people who need.
I'm going to learn to play the guitar and piano.
I'm going to meet an ideal woman.
I'm going to earn a degree.
I'm going to live comfortably.
I'm going to keep writing blogs.
I'm going to apply what I've learned, to those who haven't.
I'm going to be energetic.

I'm going to stop cursing. 
I'm going to cook my own foods.
I'm going to make it.
I'm going to smile, and mean it.
I'm going to be happy.

QUOTE OF THE DAY

Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination will take you everywhere.

Arguement

These are text messages that my teenage sister and I were sending back and forth after she got upset about the fact that she had to come home after watching a movie with her friend. She wanted to spend the night, but simply wasn't allowed.



(me)
You should be at home spending time with mom since it's her day off and she is fighting with Loui.You SHOULD be here comforting her! She's your MOM!

(sister)
Okay, yesterday night, she said that she was sick of all of us and all this stuff. She always does that. How do you think it makes me feel.

(me)
She says that because Loui has been stressing her out. How could she hate her daughter that gets good grades and works? You really believed that she hates us? After everything that has happened in our lives? You're pathetic. You need to stop thinking like a little girl and grow up some more.

(sister)
Well she says it all the time and you always make me feel terrible too. I always feel guilty and terrible cause of you guys. but it's cool.

(me)
You don't think that I'm stressed out too?? Listen to what you're saying! I promise you that one day you will realize how much of a child you were. Stop blaming things on people and start dealing with whatever is going on the best way possible and quit crying and complaining .

(sister)
Yeah i know everything that has happened and i just want everything to be normal and not have to worry all the time.

(me)
This is why age does matter, because kids like you aren't ready for the real world, BUT YOU THINK YOU ARE!! You're still so young. I hope you learn soon Sandy. Come home tonight and deal with these little problems that you consider the end of the world.

Am i wrong here? Because if I'm not, then give me an applause :P

Asobi Seksu

This is a music video by a group called Asobi Seksu, which means, "playful sex" in Japanese. The song is called, "Thursday" and it's really good so I hope you can dig it.

"Thursday" remix by The Twelves

My Mother

My mother never ever gave up on my sister and I. We were, and still are the most precious achievement that she has. We are the air she breathes. She has always sweat blood and sacrificed anything and everything in order for my sister and I to understand what is right or wrong. My mothers heart is larger than life, and so is mine. I've noticed a dormant source of energy and strength that can overcome any possible obstacle that my mind, body, and soul may face. My mom has implemented the concepts of pain, love, passion, work, respect, responsibility, sacrifice, and patience in me. I believe I'm completely prepared in time of a sudden crisis.

My mother has aged now, and I've been noticing it. Her working labor is beginning to be an everyday struggle. My sister is still young and doesn't seem to understand what is going on, so I'm going to work and study as hard as I can every single day. I'll never whine about how tiring or hard everyday will be either. I'm looking forward to being so busy; that I won't have time for friends or lunch. I'm going to make sure my mom will live a retired life. I'm going to make sure she travels to places she hasn't seen. I'm going to make sure that all her love towards my sister and I pays off. My moms is a rare symbol. And I love her so much that I can't even comprehend it sometimes.

First Day Volunteering Results

Today was the first day of volunteering at the library down the street. I didn't think they would expect me as they did! I'm pretty sure I made a positive impression on everyone there. I showed up with clean cut hair, a shaved face, dress shirt, tie and pants. There was plenty of things to do, but it didn't take me long at all to get the hang of things. I basically restocked hundreds of books, dvds, cds in alphabetical order, shredded papers, etc. Rona, the manager, told me I work so fast that I would soon run out of things to do!! I even get my own name tag around my neck which is held by a shoe lace haha. The only thing I felt awkwardly uncomfortable doing was restocking the anime and comic book sections! I can't believe kids actually read those cheesy fictional stories about humans with super powers man! Some of them don't even look like they make any sense. I'm going again tomorrow morning, but I'll be absent for four days after tomorrow because I'm going to Hollywood, California to visit a friend and hit up an infamous club that I admire.

Volunteer Work

So I've literally applied for dozens upon dozens of jobs now with only a handful of interviews within the past several months followed by no luck. Today I called most of the places I applied at to check my status and most of them are either fully staffed or have been put up on freeze from hiring new employees! It's terrible, I know. I've become frustrated, disappointed and almost depressed at times, because I get really tired of sitting around and washing the mountain of dishes that accumulate over such a short period of time. Today I reserved to do volunteer work at the library down the street from my home, so I can occupy myself for several hours while building a new reference on my resume (why didn't I think about this earlier? I don't know!). I begin training tomorrow morning at 10 a.m. At least I won't be sitting on my bum gaining anymore weight! I have new expectations like the strong possibility of going to college next semester. The only problem is that It's in January, and I don't have enough money to pay for classes and books, but I'm still strong-minded after all this time, so I refuse to give up on any ambitious ideas that would keep me busy and glad.